Monday, 27 December 2010

once sold out, forever on the market

Who can you trust? How many times in your life have you been let down? Sorry for the deep emoish questions but if i can't ask them, would you ever ask yourself? And believe me, these answers will be important. Sometimes in life you have to hit rock bottom to realize it really is possible to pick yourself up again. I am a person who has constantly been let down by life and men, don't get me wrong i also believe in luck and beauty and all things fun and spontaneous, however i am also aware that in life you can and should only rely upon yourself, perhaps this is what jades my seeded opinion of men. They will make and break promises, set you up and let you down, stand you up on dates, tell you what you want to hear then disappear. The truth about men is that they are both cowardly and not very clever. As in when it comes to emotions and common sense they are totally and completely clueless, the more we rely in them the more we will be disappointed. Expect nothing and you will never get let down. And ladies.. when the world ends i'd rather be in the position of the sexy gun wielding heroines alice (resident evil) or lara (tomb raider) than those male egotistical 'blow up or give up' characters. If women decided to rule the world, men would quickly die out.

Sunday, 26 December 2010

don't play with fire if you don't intend on getting burnt

I happy with my love life. Blatant lie, who is ever happy with their love life? Either it is too perfect, too dramatic or just non existent. I do however like my boyfriend of roughly four months, this is not a lie. My problem, as much as those who know me cannot understand why, is that i am still in love with my ex. This fire is fueled by the fact that we contact each other more often now, than we did when we were together, and also by the fact that he continues to tell me how much he regrets our break up and that he loves me. Despite knowing that what I have now is considerably better for my emotional well-being, I feel a somehow stronger connection to my ex. My explanation for this? That my current boyfriend is the buffer of the problems that before caused tension, these problems can now be ignored, perhaps even forgotten. This really isn't a solution though, a solution would be to cut one of them out of my love life to make room for the other.
The heart is a closet, when you move on to the next season, you need room, so clear it out completely... skeletons included.