once labelled, the label you shall become

It is a Saturday night and i am sat in, watching a film and eating pizza with my boyfriend. I could blame it on my lack of money to benefit a night out dancing; I could say it is because of the poor weather that I refuse to step outside, I could even put it down to my lack of sleep. However in all honesty, the only real reason i am in with him, instead of out with them, is love. Yes it is true, for the second time in my short 21 years of life, i have fallen in love with a man, but this time it feels right, he is right, i am right, everything fits perfectly into lifes little jigsaw puzzle. But now what? just be happy with it? wait for the axe to fall? I have never been a girl who is happy with everything for a decent period of time, if i find that i am, i grow bored and i do terrible wicked things to mess up my life, solidly for a breif period of drama and excitment. Lets see how long this happiness lark lasts now shall we...

because destroying your life is more fun, and theres less tears

Life was so much easier when i played the slut, home wrecker, whore or whatever your choice of words. My character was simple, have fun, care less, deal with the consequences to my actions in future years. Well now the past is starting to catch up with me and it aint no fun. However far i run, my ex seems to be waiting casually around each major corner. And my will power just keeps getting weaker with age. I like my current beau alot more than i intended to, but like isn't love, and isn't love the reason we wake up in the morning? The reason we live our lives? The solution to this problem would be to allow myself to fall deeply for the current squeeze, but he will never love me and even me in my nievity will refuse to bet on a dying horse. So it is break up with them both and hope that all is not lost, or surf the wave of fun, free, and happiness that is my early 20's fling and wait for the depressive stage of loneliness to kick in until i eventually give up on my heart and settle in to the destructiveness of love with my ex. Whatever happens,

iron out the knots

As if life isn't enough of a complicated mess, someone somewhere has to throw love into the equation and tangle it up further. So when your emotions are feeling pretty strained and your not sure which way your heart is pulling you just take a deep breathe and let it play out naturally. Lets face it, when something is supposed to happen it will, if you rely on nothing else you can trust in fate. If you like what you have, and your ex tries to mess it up with those three little worlds, i love you, you should always follow your head and ignore it, remember you broke up for a reason. However love makes you do stupid things, and the stupidest thing you will ever do for love (and this is not limited to a one time only mistake) is to follow your heart