Look but never see

I hate being analyzed, mainly because i believe i am an easy person to read. I try to be spontaneous but now I'm doing such crazy things on a regular basis its almost expected. It's as if i can't shock anyone with a tale of my crazy adventures anymore, it's even getting difficult to surprise myself. The truth is i have a basic life plan, there's some ace traveling and face my fears activities involved, but its going to take hard work and dedication to get there. This is probably because I'm too afraid to make the things i want to happen, happen now you see.

On the outside, i'm confident, non committed and careless. On the inside I'm desperately insecure, i allow little stresses to build up till i snap, and i fall in love as easily as ice-cream melts in the sun. This my friends, is caused by a string of relationship mishaps including the relationship i have with my dysfunctional parents, the misuse of love and sex with my very first true partner, and having welcoming access to statistics showing love and romance like marriage is dead. Lets face it folks, if it's doomed from the start... is there really any point in starting it at all?