the line between love and hate is thin

the commitment phobe has got a boyfriend, and as soon as it became official i felt the need to run as fast as i could off that relationship island. Lets face it guys i may have been given the society tag of one half of a whole but ill never truly be tied down, I'm still not convinced love exists or that if it does i will ever find it... but I'm one step closer to discovering what it is that draws two people to spend a lifetime together (most ending in divorce so lifetime is stretching it a little) and to understand what is today a major money making market e.g. valentines day, anniversaries and other such couple endued selling schemes. Even talking about it is scaring me, if I'm still attached next week i may celebrate; Remember I'm on the way to understanding, who said I'm ever going to buy into this stuff...?